The past lurks...

So goodbye
Will you please step out of my dreams
So much for building the friendship now that the attempt to do the awkward dance
Is over and done with
So much for being the bigger person
So goodbye
The deliberate snub was so unnecessary
But thanks for that one little last slam
To make me tougher stronger independent
So much for being the mature one
And that was one thing I was grateful for
So goodbye
Now please stop haunting my dreams
I imagine your killer stare
The cold fierce one
And I am terrified
I thought you were the teddy bear
Why the hell do you still have a hold on me
Why should I care why should it bother me
That you’ve neglected to reply
Over and over
Deliberately repeatedly making me feel to blame
And shitty again and again
But it wasn’t all me
And where would you be now anyways
If I hadn’t been so bold
You would run faster than the swiftest wildebeest
At the slightest peep of the shit I’ve had to go through since
And it has been years now
So where’s your courtesy
I never wanted to say the final goodbye
But now you’ve wedged it in my chest
Thank you for making me feel like an incessant pest
And why should I even care
So goodbye
Will you please stay out of my dreams


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must be different

my dad always says..
must be different la u! in a tone of slight disgust and annoyance at my failure to conform.
like when everyone orders wan tan mee thin one, i'd want fat one.
or when everyone orders hokkien mee, i'd want the maggi mee version.
or when people want the white sugar man chang kueh, i want the brown sugar one.
hey, i'm adventurous. and anyways, im not different ALL THE TIME.
so i'm an individual.
so anyways, last saturday nite bro n i drove over to gurney drive to get tau fu fah for the folks.
yes we were sitting at home doing our stuff on a SATURDAY nite. hey working folks like to enjoy their saturday nites,k. besides parents were away for few days before and we wanted to be home. so we landed in soyaland. aand of course i wanted the tau fu fah with BROWN sugar. rebel that i am.
saturday nite ate beancurd jelly with longan. tau fu fah in fridge.
sunday nite, had crepes for dessert. tau fu fah in fridge.
mon nite. bang bang bang on my door.
OEI! leave ur TFF in fridge for so long. summore BROWN sugar no one else wants. so i go down to eat my TFF.
and..
UGH.
with brown sugar it tastes like pi pa gao and tau hu.
lesson learnt.
sometimes the majority is right. and has good taste.

p/s for those not used to the pi pa gaoslang/spelling it is some old man brand cough mixture thick and bblackish brown kinda sweet, very useful for throat problems, not a friendly dessert tho.

creative outlet

the joy of creating something makes your weekend worthwhile..

ryoma japanese restaurant

post in old vein (limited viewpoint)

today mum took us 3, siblings for lunch at ryoma japanese restaurant. its a relatively new spot along jln tanjung tokong..the food was yummy and i certainly was tickled by their choice of earthenware crockery and their pumpkin green tea pot. yes it looked like an actual pumpkin. lotsa of choices, and the menu features many pictures of the food so you'd have a very clear idea of what you'll be eating.

etc etc etc


post in new vein (more social commentary)

today mum took us 3, siblings for lunch at ryoma japanese restaurant. its a relatively new spot along jln tanjung tokong..the food was yummy and i certainly was tickled by their choice of earthenware crockery and their pumpkin green tea pot. yes it looked like an actual pumpkin. lotsa of choices, and the menu features many pictures of the food so you'd have a very clear idea of what you'll be eating.
now what struck me most, aside from the giant sakura die cuts against the black walls and the origami cranes hanging around, was the serving attitude of both the tau keh (boss/owner) and tau keh so (boss's wife) as one would expect they'd greet you with a bow, welcome you, smile etc. but throughout the course of your meal/visit, you can see how they're watching over all the diners. the tau keh so herself comes and clears your dishes, and the tau keh came out to give my bro his namecard.
now the most interesting things is this..
on the back of the menu there are profiles of the tau keh whose name is hiro something and the chief chef who is japanese too. you are entertained and enlightened by the brief biodata of mr hiro complete with a letter to patrons. the tone of the letter is one of complete sincerity and humility. he is so humble like he's so pleased to come and set up business here in penang etc etc and if you have any comments etc.. "i need your help always". the chief chef, on the other hand shares his "idea of cooking after 44 years.."SEEK GOOD FLAVOUR". simply put, yet profound i tell you.
now that in itself draws you to the place as a whole and you're happy to patronize the place. totally. especially since the cream cheese oysters are KILLER=)
and so, after lunch as we were making our way out mr hiro (who looks like he could be a japanese prime minister) walks us out, bows, says thank you (flanked by his chinese wife)(who also bows) and proceeds to open our car doors for us. talk about good service man.
the whole point is it's not just about the acts of servitude but their whole attitude that just says something about mankind. a special clan of mankind who are gentle and serving and humble.
if only we could all be like that. on that note, i'm off to watch heroes. again=)
til my next attempt at a better blogpost, i leave you with this message..
Seek Good Flavour..
(in penang its not so hard)

blogger hall of shame

i am realizing today
that my blog
is a tad immature.
completely touchy feely
devoid of rousing national sentiment or any sort of revolution.
i do not seem to have words like revolution. generation. mankind. unlike this guy over here..
sigh.
what sort of writer am i if not to ignite passion and wonder and the hope for a brighter future.
not just for individuals but for the collective community
what do i believe in?
what do i stand for?
apart from the joy and wonder of gift vouchers, and good food for lunch and pretty papers?
i need a more macro telescope.
even if not to discuss politics then at least what's ont he front page of the Star newspaper.
paris hilton sentenced to prison. nyuk nyuk.
and so, i publicly vow to increase my peripheral vision and then transpose it to this repository of thoughts.
generate feedback from the community.
create a forum of sorts for us to dictate our world, our future.
"pinky, let's take over the world" muahahahaa.
ok.omit the last one.

may day

plan for the day ( a HOLIDAY!)

1. go out with friend (possibly to queensbay for a change) sorta an adventure to utilize borders gift voucher, catch up, have a yummy lunch and catch a movie
2. play by ear

what i did accomplish today
1. brunch with folks
2. tidied out desk drawer which led me to
3. sort and go through memorabilia box which led me to
4. write an email
5. refolded all clothes in cupboard and tidied it (finally)
6. made sandwiches for sarah for tea and kept an eye on her so she wouldnt feel too lonely
7. composed email to sned out to ppl on mailing list (for shoppe)
8. checked out websites of scrapbook shops in sg which led me to...
9. ogle the new stuff entering the scrapbooking world
10. cooked tomato-ey meatballs for siblings for dinner
11. blogged
12. changed bedsheets
13. tidied up my ribbons for scrapbooking
14. backed up photos and cleared space on lappie(yes, its still functioning fine and now i can import songs to itunes=)
15. fiddled a bit on facebook
16. uploaded some photos on friendster
17. chatted on ichat

the night is still young...

i hope to do the following
1. work on travel moleskine
2. scrap with sarah
3. dinner
4. possibly watch some tv

arhhh. seize the day indeed. and tomorrow... another holiday!!! hope to go back to the shop/office to do some work tho..

happy labour day everyone. for those yet to enter the working life, trust me public holidays are a huge deal=)