sunrays and raindrops...

riight.so i owe it to myself to post something decent after that string of mindless quizilla results.i don't even know why i bother.since my teenage years when i used to so look forward to reading seventeen or cosmogirl and take the silly quizzes i realized that i dun quite fit into any sub divided category of anything.the complete,complexity of who i am and who i strive to be cannot be captured by a few random responses to a few random questions.i mean,stereotypes just don't slide onto me that easily.i can be the epitome of sunrays one minute and raindrops the next.

i dunno if that reflects inconsistency,i just think that i can be contradictory to what people think of me initially.and i encapsulate various elements and aspects.my itunes library in itself says as much.not to mention my book collection(which by the way has dwindled after my sorting and packing to come to singapore)my music library ranges from clay aiken and josh groban to mandy moore and natalie cole to linkin park and brian mcknight and jim brickman.ahh well,then again i guess loads of ppl ascribe to having wide and varied musical tastes.what i am trying to say is..what is it i am trying to say anyway?hee.maybe when i have time enough i will write a comprehensive report on myself as i know it instead of letting a few quizzes dictate what "element" i am and what kind of girl i am.bah.

anyways,my exams are looming nearer and nearer and..gasp.been sleeping more than i should in order to study like crazy.i refuse to say "mug".which apparently is the term that everyone in sg or NUS at least uses."mug mug mug"sheesh.not that i never knew what it meant but still when everyone says it in that manner it just becomes so..oh well.for me..i need to "STUDY".not mug.;) .as i told my mummy on the phone..(yes,i admitted it=p)i'm so not used to the way things are done here..the continuous assessment stuff with all the projects and essays which i take forever to do and end up with miserable "C's".aaarghh.i've always been the kind who can chalk up incredible study sessions like a month or less before exams to make up for the last like few months...but now consistency is imperative!!!!i sincerely vow to at least get the hang of it if not master this new methods by next semester.

my folks are coming right at the end of my finals.shall see them right after exams.even more to look forward too...sigh.i just wish i can get back all the steam i normally have to piah (piah is like a hokkien cooler version of "mug"=p) like crazee till then.can't wait to show my mum and dad and sister glimpses of my life and environment here.hope they don't get a shock.nothing shocking what right?this is uni life.i'm sure they do know what it's like.oh gosh...in less than 4 months i will be turning 21!!yipes.time flies.if there's one thing i've learnt more so than anything else,it's that the quotation "this too will pass" can be really helpful if you really grasp the esssence of it and ascribe to it.melodramatic me has many a time been thwarted by the looming obstacle right in front of me,seemingly holding me back from any semblance of peace and happiness and then time and God resolves it (along with other factors).days,weeks,months,years later you look back in retrospect realizing that it did pass and you've emerged stronger,wiser,and hopefully better..

pierce through every shade of darkness
sunshine through sunrays
blistering brightness
blinding brilliance

cast the storm aside
away
not even for another day
unless to cleanse
wash
refresh

melt every last tear
dry the rain
absorb the pain

sunrays without rain
yet another bane
no reprieve
no relief

raindrops without sun
drenches everyone
no warmth
all gloom


pattern is as such
embrace it as much
sunrays
and raindrops